January 29, 2021
And let us not grow weary of doing good, for in due season we will reap, if we do not give up.
Do you ever “grow weary of doing good?” Stop and think about that for a moment.
If you often find yourself trying to be a “good Christian,” then I’m-tired-of-doing-good is something you probably don’t admit too often. (“Nope! No problems here! Happy to serve!” we might proclaim, maybe with a touch of grumpiness?) But the truth is, from time to time, we all grow weary of doing good, for any number of reasons.
You know who else grew weary of doing good? Jesus.
And going a little farther he fell on his face and prayed, saying, “My Father, if it be possible, let this cup pass from me; nevertheless, not as I will, but as you will.” Matthew 26:39
Jesus’ prayer here blows me away. Look at what He’s saying! Father, if it’s possible, can we not do this? Can we just not do the crucifixion thing? Is there any other way? I’ll do it if You say to, but… I do not want to.
This is the God-man, Emmanuel, God-in-the-Flesh saying… I’m tired?! He’s saying He doesn’t feel like going through with this, even though that’s the whole reason He came in the first place!
This comforts me in so many ways. For one, I’m always beating myself up anytime I realize I’m feeling “un-Christian-like” (you know, harboring those secret thoughts like “I just don’t feel like being kind today,” or “I really don’t like that person.” Things we don’t say out loud). But I’m not condemned for feeling that way, everyone experiences that. Jesus experienced that!
Another comfort is the immensity of the burden of sin Jesus bore for us. To face an excruciating, extended, utterly cruel execution, especially when you don’t deserve it. Especially when you’re essentially God and you really don’t have to do this unless you choose to? That’s a breathtaking weight. And yet Jesus chose to carry it. He chose to persevere for all of us.
Let’s ask ourselves today, why exactly do we “do good” in the first place? What is our motivation? Do we do it because we’re supposed to? Because we have to? To follow the rules? To keep God from getting mad? Or do we do good because God did such good for us, and we’re deeply grateful and humbly willing? Where is your heart today on your motivation to do good?